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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 25.06.2025 13:10

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Especially a lifetime of it.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

What problems do you face in everyday life?

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

She was in good health!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

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A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

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The only rule us 5 kids had .

When she asked me how she looked .

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

How does the brain decide "what" thought to attach to a feeling?

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

It was going to be , some day.

Why did i forgive my father ?

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She found it foreign!.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

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With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

(And it was in our own minds.)

He resisted the act ,that day.

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And i lived it daily.

Would this be the day?

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Why do older siblings always hate younger siblings?

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

What is the kinkiest thing you and your sex partner have done in bed?

I did it because my mum asked me too!

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

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They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I waited trembling.

Comes on , in middle age.

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She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

I will be 64.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

But ive been too sick for many years..

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

I think the readers, may guess!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

One cannot live in the past .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

But it wasn’t much.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I could never make a relationship work though!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I was very sick at this time too.

But, we were locked up after school.

I was 9 years of age.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

My life is so biszare .

My family never makes their pension either.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Ive learnt so much.

So whats the point in blame.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

She loved him until the end.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

What did i know ?

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Was to survive, this bastard.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

So, i spoilt her more .

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

I couldn’t, believe it.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Who then, do I blame.?

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I never cut or harmed myself..

I don,t even have a pension.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I write beautiful poetry .

I was seconnd youngest,

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

She wouldn,t have been !

I have no regrets .

This is soul school!.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

We were not on the streets..

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

As i do to all so called friends.?

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

He knew the spot.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I was scared of men, in general

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

This is how, and why children get BPD.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

On the 31st of Jan this month .

She married twice! .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I said to her

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Im still living with it.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

All the time i was locked up.

Put me off passion for life!!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

We all went to grammer schools

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor